Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Amanda, blurbing book club, book, Catcher in the Rye, favorited, Girl at Sea, Half Price Books, happy, John Green, Maureen Johnson, nerdfighter, subscribers, Twilight, Uncultured Project, video, vlogbrothers, YouTube
Have you ever made a video, edited the footage, watched it multiple times, posted it on YouTube, made it a response to John’s latest video, and thought huh, why did I think that would be a good idea again? Pretty much how I felt yesterday. To the point where I couldn’t sleep. I turned off my computer at like 8ish because I feared all the mean comments that I was going to get; I had already gotten 1.5 within the three hours I had posted the video. But when I woke up this morning I found 25 emails in my inbox, most being comments and all nice!
While I’m writing this I just got an email informing me that I have another subscriber! I think that’s like 96 now! I’m rapidly approaching 100, and I promised myself I would make a special video for the occasion , but I am fresh out of ideas! Argh!
Anyway, I want to preserve yesterday forever, so I’m going to document what happened as best as I can:
I was finishing up all the vlogbrother videos. So I have now officially watched them all. When I came to the most recent, it was probably approaching an hour after it had been posted. As soon as I saw Half Price Books, the idea popped into my head. Uh, okay, wow, I could totally go there, like now and… GET IT! AHH! Sure, it was 2:40 in the afternoon, and I hadn’t gotten dressed for the day, let alone shower! I threw on the quickest thing that didn’t look like pajamas, grabbed my purse with camera & phone, and bolted downstairs to ask Granddad for the car keys.
Why was I so excited? Looking back, I have no idea. It was one of those “heat of the moment” things (as the 80s song chimes in my head). I mean, why do people on Emeril go nuts when he puts garlic in stuff? I love the vlogbrothers, I love John Green, and I love his books. Is it wrong that doing something so impulsive beatified me? If it is, then I don’t want to be right!
As soon as I pulled out of my driveway, the first thing I did was call Amanda. She wasn’t getting very good reception, so I think for the most part, she had no idea what I was doing. After hanging up, I took out my video camera and filmed. It wasn’t too bad getting there, even though I didn’t have my contacts in — reading street signs was a joy. Mostly I was just worried that the trip would be totally pointless because some — OMG I JUST GOT AN EMAIL SAYING MY VIDEO WAS FAVORITED BY THE VLOGBROTHERS! AHHHHHH! :D
Anyway, uh wow. Okay. I hope this doesn’t make hoping I won’t get four more subscribers soon too difficult. But
god, I’m happy! Okay, where was I before I became to rudely star-struck.
Right, worrying that some awesome nerdfighter had gotten there before me. I wouldn’t have been too distraught, but disappointed definitely. Luckily I tend to be pessimistic with these kind of things and expected it to be long gone.
When Half Price Books was in sight, I was so excited that I turned early and wound up in a parking lot for a dentist office. By this time I couldn’t be mad at myself, as shear excitement had completely taken over my body. Once parked in the correct lot, I practically bounced into the store. I had only been there twice: the first time I was looking for a hardback copy of Twilight, the second to ask for an application (they never called back :[, but I think they want employees at least 18).
I vaguely remembered where the Young Adult section was and wandered as calmly as my {gah, stop subscribing!} giddy self would allow. I whipped out my camera as I looked for the book. I started looking under G which made absolutely no sense because I knew he signed Maureen Johnson's book. Then when I remembered I should be looking under the Js, I couldn't remember whether G or J came first in the alphabet [in the video you can hear me mutter something along the lines of "I can't remember the alphabet..."]! When I found some titles with Maureen’s name, for some reason I automatically jumped to the conclusion that it was gone. It blended in so well; I expected it to be bigger or something. Why won’t my nerd-sense tingle when I need it most?! Finally, some level-headedness kicked in; I caught the title. My hands started shaking so much that I had to put the camera down just so I could open the book.
And there it was. John’s signature. Exactly how I had seen it an hour before. Except not on my computer. Not on YouTube. Not in a video box. But in my hands. I felt like I had found the sorcerer’s stone! Sure, I wasn’t going to get immortality, but I think a book written by Maureen Johnson and signed by John Green in one of his videos is pretty jokes all the same.
I made a beeline to the checkout. No doubt with a huge grin plastered across my face. When the cashier asked me if I found everything okay I practically screamed “YES, I DID!” at him. Whoops!
On the way back, I called Amanda again, and she finally understood and squee’d with me. I also filmed some more, but apparrently I didn’t press the start button hard enough because it wasn’t footage of me making the nerdfighter sign [meaning I had no hands on the steering wheel] or thanking John; uh, no it was me turning off the camera after I had said everything.
Since posting, not only have I gotten comments from John, Kayley, and other YouTube friends, but also Shawn from the Uncultured Project. And, while writing this up, nerdfighter tadshackles informed me of being favorited on vlogbrothers. So, uh pretty good two days, I’d say! Girl at Sea now rests comfortably on my bookshelf, parked next to my Twilight books. I have too many things I want to read! I’ve started The Scarlet Letter which is for school, and I want to read Catcher in the Rye for the blurbing book club [I've attempted to read it no less that 4 times, but am determined to now to uphold my nerdfighterly awesomeness]. DFTBA, world.
And that infinite happiness I felt? I’m pretty sure that’s only a fraction of what John and Hank get from nerdfighters every day :]
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: dig, Harry Potter, Kayley, owl, stuffed animals, teddy bear
I have literally searched every room in my house. The upstairs, the downstairs, the basement, the garage. Closets, cabinets, drawers, under everything. Not a single bear. My house is probably the only one in America that does not have teddies on the premises! This is ridiculous. While in the basement, I came across a box of stuffed animals from my very early childhood [my parents must be saving them to weep over when I leave]. No Ursus arctos. I have multiple cats, longhair and shorthair. I have bunnies. I even have a freakin’ guinea pig!! The only bear objects I have come across is a plastic bead on one of my sister’s bracelets and a bear on a picture frame. Not gonna cut it.

However I did find this adorable carved owl! It made me think of Kayley. Owls say hoot! He’s kind of how I imagined Pig, so he’s gonna hang out with my Potter stuff. I’ll get a picture of him up later :]
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: college, Danielle, depressed, Johnny Depp, loser, mom, movies, music, nature, school, Sweeney Todd, Team Twiligher, Tennessee, YouTube

I got back from Tennessee today. As unbearable as it was for the five+ years I lived there, it can be rather beautiful. If you’re on the inside looking out. With plenty of air conditioning.
Well, let me get to the root of this post. Get it over with more like. So, after a couple weeks of awaiting the Team Twilighter results, they were posted Saturday. I had already told myself not to expect anything. There were honestly some great people who also auditioned. I stayed with my grandmother who lives in probably the most remote area of town. The only way I could get Internet was on my phone by sticking it on the corner of her window and letting the page load for a good ten minutes. Finally, it was posted. And when my name wasn’t on the list, not even the monthly correspondents, I felt… well, not great. I mean it’s pretty stupid of me to be upset over a YouTube channel, but I was genuinely upset and still feel a bit of a pang when I think on it.
All the girls[/guy] who were chosen deserved to be picked. I really don’t mean to sound like a sore loser. But I am the loser. And that’s really difficult for me. Well, no one likes losing, duh. But I’ve been pretty fortunate so far in my life to not experience “loser” too often.
College has been a topic of conversation lately. Whenever I tell my mom my alternative to New York City is to apply on the west coast, she gets all choked up. That happened in the car ride home today. And it ended up turning into I need a back up school I know I can get into in case too many other reasonably intelligent people get my spot in all the big schools I want to attend. So, in addition to feeling unwanted/unappreciated on the Internet (to which I think, why can’t I just be satisfied with my physical life?!) I now get to obsess over not getting the luck of the draw with college admission. Fan-fricken-tastic.
Unfortunately, I’ve always been one to compare myself to others. To the point where it has just become a part of me. I really wish I was one of those people who could care less. But I do care. So, I get worked up over all this and my perfectionist tendencies and BAH!
YOU KNOW, I AM NOT A BAD PERSON! I make the effort to care about others. I have a job. I moved this year to a new state, new school. A new school that made my old one look like the joke it was. I worked hard this year. My report card? I had all A+s and one A. I earned those grades. I deserve to get into a good school. But you know, if I don’t. I can’t control that. And I’ll be a right mess for a while, but not forever.
I don’t even know what I’m doing. Am I trying to cheer myself up? Am I trying to beat myself up?
Whatever. I did get to spend sometime with my old best friend Danielle on this visit. We watched three movies in one evening. Across the Universe, Sweeney Todd, and Becoming Jane. I really liked them all. Sure, in Sweeney I had to keep a pillow handy at all times to shield my eyes from the spurting blood, but the music was fantastic. As I typed this I was listening to the soundtrack and “Bye the Sea” came on. Along with the mental image of Johnny in his bathing suit. Which was great. And it brightened me up. I’ve included it for your enjoyment as well. Geeze, Bellatrix has some pipes on her.
Side Note: All that movie watching made me come to this realization – I’m a sucker for Brits with long hair. Slobber. If he is questionable, vocal ability is the tie breaker. Haha, Snape. Gosh, so many Potter actors in Sweeney Todd! Love it!


